Last night I went to bed after eating like 3 pot brownies so needless to say, I was stoned out of my mind. Let me start off by saying I am a very strong dreamer okay? I dream almost all the time, basically every night and I remember them all. I can remember dreams I had when I was little and I remember dreams I had years ago.. it's almost like I get to live this second life in my dreams. A lot of the places that I go in my dreams look like similar places that I go in real life or alternate versions of them... For example I can be in a house that looks just like my grandparents house in my dream except the paint on the wall will be a different color, the bed in a different place, a chair in a different spot.. little shit. I can recognize little stuff and small details in my dreams and it can be cool yet creepy..
Okay so flashback to last night.. I'm having this dream that I'm in this strange house, I don't know maybe it's a trap house but I'm looking out of a window and there's a really tall guy standing outside (I'm on the inside looking out...) and he's just really got this negative vibe about him. He is standing outside waving a gun around and he's mad about something, I don't know what and I don't care, so I'm trying to lock this door that is beside the window. I start to struggle with the lock for some reason because in my dreams I guess I just can't get ahold of myself completely. This has happened to me in dreams before. So I lose a bit of time struggling with the lock on this old door and by that time the angry man has made it to the door and he is pushing but I am holding him back by pushing the door... I don't know what to do so I just start yelling for Zach. (Note, Zach hasn't shown up in this dream yet.. He comes as a knight in shining armour in the end.)
I eventually get the door shut and locked, because somehow I am able to overpower this big man by pushing on the door but dream logic, right? I was calling for Zach but he still hadn't showed up and at this point in the dream I'm freaking out because I think maybe the mad guy had Zach or something... I was glad I had got the old door locked but it didn't help because the windows turned out to just be empty holes in the wall... A window without a window pane. I hadn't deciphered if the window was like that before when I was looking out of it... or if the window pane had just disappeared. It didn't matter anyways, because the angry guy with the extremely negative energy had got inside through the window hole and was pointing a gun at me. I remember yelling, "Zach, get a gun!" but then panicking because I thought well we don't have a gun.
By then the angry man was grabbing me by my neck and just sort of holding me there, and I never could figure out why he was so mad. He had a really scary and almost evil face and he had a really long beard. I was just screaming in the dream until Zach, out of nowhere, comes in the room and he's got a gun, then shoots the guy in the head point blank... I remember having his blood all over me because he was standing so close to me and holding me there with nothing between us but his arm. It's like in the dream, everything was in slow motion yet happened so fast. Dreaming it was strange because when the bullet hit him in the head, I watched it happen like right in front of me and there was blood splatter... I looked down at my hands and there was blood all over them, and all of a sudden... I wake up.
This also happens a lot in my dreams; waking up in the middle of the night, falling asleep again, then dreaming again. Most of the time I will go back to sleep and dream something new but only rarely will I go back and continue dreaming the same dream I awoke from before. After that one terrifying dream, the rest of the night seemed to mellow out a little bit. I dreamed of driving a big RV with Zach and it was amazing because we were driving through these beautiful streets and places. Tall trees on both sides of the road, tall hills that we climbed then drove down. It really was like seeing some place new even though it came from my own mind... Then we stopped some quiet and secluded place surrounded by beautiful pine trees and a small pond or lake was off to the side... I'm just recalling all these details and trying to put them together for a blog post cause apparently, it can help you to write about your dreams to remember them better and by clarifying that yes, in fact that was a dream and I am not dreaming right now kind of way. Reality checks can also help you control a dream better because by being sure of the fact that you're awake, can help you recognize when you are in a dream.
Anyways, that's how the rest of the night went... I was driving an RV and exploring abandoned houses with Zach; for some reason these are regular dreaming patterns for me because so many of my dreams happen on the road or I dream about being in a very big, almost house-like RVs. Seriously, I am not joking when I say the RV of my dreams is big enough for 50 people and I don't even know how that's physically possible lol. I just remember seeing lots of bunk beds and closets in rooms and a long hallway that turned into the driver's seat. My dreams don't make a whole lot of sense but it's the normal for me to go to bed and get to drive everywhere in places that my subconscious mind creates. I drive my car a lot too but not as much as an RV except a few times I dreamed of driving the RV, (including last night's) I almost lose control of it.
Last night I let my foot off of the brake in the RV and it started rolling forward and I couldn't get my leg to press back on the brakes again but I can never get my body to do things normally in my dreams. I started to panic again but then Zach came to my rescue again for the second dream in the same night! 💜 He pulled up this emergency brake in the RV that I didn't see and we came to a stop. It's funny how I can almost feel the movement of the vehicle in my dreams, whether it's my car or an RV.. I can feel like I'm actually driving and actually stopping the car. When I let my foot off the brakes and the RV started rolling forward it actually felt like my body was rolling and when Zach pulled the e-brake I really felt like I came to a stop. (Note: I have done that before in dreams; let my foot slip off the brake & roll forward or feel like the brakes in the car have gone out and can't slow the car down, but NEVER has someone ever intervened and taken control of it like that... last night was different.)
I am really fascinated by the fact that my mind creates these dreams while I'm sleeping and it's like a little version of a universe, just for me. All of the scenery in my dreams that's just like the scenery I see everyday, yet different or alternate versions of it and they're visions that are only for me. Dreams are quite fascinating to me. I wish I hadn't taken any Dramamine because it suppresses my dreams but I was just having too hard of a time sleeping. I'm going to try to get some sleep though... I feel like there was more to that dream that I'm not remembering right away but I will post it when I have a clearer head. Goodnight xoxo 💜💝💟
