Florida

I have been out of Alabama and off of social media for a few months now. Mainly because there was soda in my phone and that's why it was always breaking and the battery had to be replaced so many times. I'm not complaining, though. I actually like not being on social media all the time. So now, I only get online when I use my mom's laptop when I'm visiting her.
I use an old Tracfone now and all I use it for is calling because I barely text anyone anyways. But anyways, Florida is amazing and fun. I'm much happier living there than living in this dump town. I'm getting to be all free spirit and do my own thing for a while before I consider moving back. That is, if I even considered it, anyways, because for now I haven't. Florida just makes me feel like I'm going to be young forever and makes me a happier person in general. My small town house is perfect for me, and it's a good place to read and think and create art and paintings.
I may login to my Tumblr art blog and download some of them to my Art page on this blog.
Sometimes, sharing my art with the internet seems like a good idea, because I guess I want other people to enjoy my paintings, (if you enjoy that kinda stuff.) but sometimes it feels like a crime because it opens up a window of opportunity for others to steal or copy my ideas, or in other cases, try to tell me my paintings are awful or ugly or unsatisfactory. Whatever happens, it's okay because I don't upload all of my art anyways. Surely, there's no way for anyone to steal all my ideas, though. I have filled up almost two Canson Mixed Media books with nothing but my paintings and drawings. I love the mixed media books, because I love painting with watercolors and the mix media paper works amazing for watercolor because the paper is thicker than regular paper.

Anyways, on another note, spending the weekend of the Marion rodeo actually in Marion feels kind of weird but okay. The reason I'm actually here is because Monday, Zach and I are going with my mom on a road trip to Hot Springs, Arkansas. And from what I hear, it's just as beautiful and amazing as it sounds. I can't wait! I've never been so far West before. Apparently, you can get in the Hot Springs like a hot tub and there's minerals in the water that's really good for your skin because it's all natural spring water heated up by the Earth I guess. All I know is this is going to be one of the most fun road trips I've had in a long time.
Maybe I'll come back even darker than I already am, which is really tan anyways. I've never been so tan before, and so early in the year. It's not even summer yet and I already have really broad, thick tan lines where my bikini sits. It took hours and hours of sitting on the beach to get as tan as I am now so I hope I don't have to start over next summer.

My Happy Place

This is at Okaloosa Island's Boardwalk in Fort Walton Florida. I love the beach so much, it makes me so happy and I love getting to swim in the ocean and the best part is I'm gonna get to go back tomorrow

Picture Post #2

Selfie cause I'm cute and I am a goddess in pink lipstick. 

JoJo & I :) where I come from you can be underage and get away with drinking in the bar, they don't give a fuck! ;D

Selfie with my car that I love oh, so much<3

My blue eyes that sparkle and shine brighter than a hundred stars. (: because I just love my eyes

The next time I get my hair done, it will be something like this. So I can be blonde & pink at the same time ;D

Wait... Why am I posting pictures? I don't have to. I use FreePrints. Best decision ever!

Rant !

Okay so I'm on Facebook and I see this girl posting a bunch of statuses about being homeless and sharing an advertisement for a fund raiser for $300 dollars so she can stay in a hotel room. But seriously, this girl obviously has money for whatever smart device it may be, a smartphone, a tablet, iPad, laptop, desktop computer, whatever it may be to be getting on the internet to be posting this stuff. So you know she's not that bad off. If she's using a cell phone then there's gotta be a phone bill..right? Or even if she's some place using free WiFi she's still got some sort of smart device that's able to connect to the internet! And this bitch has piercings all over her mouth and eye brows & just 2 days ago she's posting about how she got a hair cut. You know I can't even remember the last time I had my hair done. So she can't be struggling that bad. Um, maybe you could get a fucking job? Instead of asking your Facebook friends for money. I mean I have never been so repulsed in my life. I cannot stand when people ask for money!

One year my family and I took a trip to San Antonio, Texas and on every corner you would see someone asking for money. My mom has such a sense of humor. This Mexican man was standing outside of a bar and he asked my mom for a quarter for a beer. She didn't mind giving him a quarter for a beer just because he was honest! And I wouldn't honestly mind giving the man a quarter either because it's better than some of the low life's you see faking being broke, like the woman that stood outside the same Walmart for weeks asking customers for money, and a local man recognized her at a gas station in a 2014 Fiat 500. The man was furious, of course, so he got out his phone and started to take a video. "You are driving a nicer car than I am and you are standing outside Walmart everyday asking me for money! You drive a newer car than I do!" In this situation, I would have reacted the same way. Because the woman was a liar and it was pathetic. If you have the money to be investing in a car like a Fiat then you certainly don't need to be panhandling. 

But you know what is common in all of these situations? None of them were asking for money on Facebook. Reguardless, it costs money to get on Facebook in the first place. Weather you pay for your Wifi at home, or you paid for your laptop or smart phone, or you pay a bill every month to have wireless internet on your phone, you are still paying money to be able to use social networks. And this girl is posting these things at midnight, and I honestly don't know of any public libraries that stay open until midnight. Do you? Exactly. 

Maybe you could've saved the money from all those piercings on your face. People work hard to make a living these days, especially at the businesses that do wrong to good people for no reason. I have seen it too many times, from my mom, my boyfriend, and even my dad, a math teacher that got fired because the principals son that was in his class didn't get an A or B. So much wrong doing, and I could go on and on with more examples, but that's a whole different blog post. 

I guess I just wanted to rant about something that was bothering me. 

Until next time, goodbye :)

Updated blog

After working at this for a few hours, I think I have finally got it right! I've always had issues with how my blog looked and wondering if I liked it or not but now I think I've gotten it perfect! I added a new beautiful and colorful outer space looking background to it, and I have changed some fonts and colors and now I do believe i have gotten it perfect! I wish I could make more pages, like maybe a guestbook for people to write messages and add pictures too, but I don't think I can do that, and I don't think I'd know how even if I could! Well, I'm going to get off here now, until I can think of something else to blog about! (:

Picture Post

Memories I Won't Forget

I don't even know why but I made this picture haha I really hate cops 

I never thought I would like spray painting so much until I did with my best friend. Now were going to be painting more than just bridges👌

Zach sitting on a rock at the Cahawba River. He looks so photogenic and adorable in this picture! This is the best picture I've ever taken of Zach :) he is wonderful. 

My halfway good but halfway terrible drawing of me and Zach hahaha I like this picture so much

My baby calico 

Me getting older. Numbers are age but I haven't put made one with 18 yet 😂

Depressed

Why? That's why I'm making this blog post. 

For the past 2 years of high school, all I've wanted is to go back to West Blocton & be back in public school because I hate private school so badly. I especially hate the private school I'm going to now & all my high school years have been spent in private schools & it's absolutely miserable. This last semester of my senior year, I was very much hoping of spending it at West Blocton. Well... that idea has been fucked to shit. I've lost all hope of going back because I have no ride, so no way to get there. I wish I could be like my brother & just deal with riding with my dad but since he's graduating earlier than me, I would be riding with him alone & I will NEVER do that. 

I'm depressed because all my high school years have been wasted & my most important senior year especially. Sometimes, I just think about failing on purpose just so I can have another senior year. But of course, I know I can't even fucking do that either. 

I'm so fucking depressed that I know that Christmas break is coming to an end & there's only a few more short days until I start back my second semester. & it's just worse that I know I'm going to be forced spending it in a school I hate. 

I've been wishing this whole time that something bad would just happen to me. Maybe a car hit me & I have to be in the hospital or something, at this point I don't even care what happens to me, I just don't want to go back to that school. I would rather be in the hospital than that school. I'd rather be dead. 

All my hope & dreams are lost & I know there's not a snowball's chance in hell for me to go where I want with my life. I can't even choose what college I want to go to. There's no future with me, or where I want to go. 

So I'm just fucking stranded... in a school that hasn't educated me in two years, and is JUST now educating me. Yeah guess what? 10th & 11th grade, I have been SO uneducated that I took a practice ACT test and made a fucking 12. There's no fucking telling how bad I am going to do when I take the REAL ACT! Before, I would get frustrated over that fact, but tonight, I'm passed all of it. I'm passed all the frustration because I know that's going to get me nowhere. I'm just hopeless & depressed now. There's no future for me. I really just want to die. I will never be happy... & because I can't go to the right school & have the right education & restrictions, I will never follow my New Years resolution to quit smoking weed or quit drugs because now I know that there's no hope left. & that's all I have. 

Because, you see, I had this planned out before... It could've been so simple. Going to school at West Blocton, but waking up earlier in the morning, going to school there with a packed schedule, & staying after school with Morgan until his baseball practice was over. I wouldn't even have had time to be smoking weed...but since I have all of the free time now, that's all I'm going to want to do. I can see it now. 

A miserable hell of a future lies ahead of me & I know it. That's why I'm so depressed.